I did my exposure time early on Wednesday because I went to help my friend paint again (and got multiple brown paint spots on the front of my shirt…). Each day, I’ve been setting aside some time to go around the house and sit in chairs, on couches, touch door knobs, light switches, handles, or…
A quick review of yesterday: the day started off with my bowing to a compulsion, which of course led to more compulsions. I’ve noticed that when I engage in a compulsion, something often goes wrong and leads me to freak out even more because now an even bigger mess (and more obsessions) has been created.
For the next little while, the blog will be my “accountability” platform for my exposures. For those of you just joining in, I’ve had a major “relapse” into my contamination OCD in recent weeks/months and recently went on a new medication and just started buckling down and doing exposures “seriously” again.
The last few weeks have been rough, as you probably have gathered if you’ve been reading the blog regularly.
Like I wrote earlier, things have been fairly rough lately. I have felt like I am constantly unclean, and that “discomfort” (which to me feels like saying a broken limb is a slight scratch) has been ruling my life, leading me to wash my hands over and over again, restrict what I do and when…